So to keep myself involved with this blog I think I need to write about something fun or neat or cool or interesting...
I mean, I know that my life is so exciting that everyone wants to read about it. I don't want to use it as a b*tching post. I know I have slipped a couple times and b*tched anyway. We need too sometimes. I got BFF for venting the big things.

I'm pretty good in the make up department. Maybe I shoud give tips? I think RM suggested that once. I don't want to steal anyone's thunder though. I have come across a couple cool make up blogs.

I could tell stories about my dysfunctional family. That could be comical and also a bit embarassing. Seriously though, who wants to hear about it?

Frack!! I'm stuck. I guess I'll think of something. So for now I give you...

50 Life Lessons

1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.
2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
4. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
5. Pay off your credit cards every month.
6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.
8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.
9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.
10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.
11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.
12. It's OK to let your children see you cry.
13. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.
15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks.
16. Life is too short for long pity parties. Get busy living, or get busy dying.
17. You can get through anything if you stay put in today.
18. A writer writes. If you want to be a writer, write.
19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.
20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.
21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special.
22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.
23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.
24. The most im portant sex organ is the brain.
25. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words: "In five years, will this matter?"
27. Always choose life.
28. Forgive everyone for everything.
29. What other people think of you is none of your business.
30. Time heals almost everything. Give time time.
31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
32. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.
33. Believe in miracles.
34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.
35. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.
36. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.
37. Your children get only one childhood. Make it memorable.
38. Read the Psalms. They cover every human emotion.
39. Get outside every day. Miracles are wa iting everywhere.
40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back.
41. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.
42. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
43. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
44. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
45. The best is yet to come.
46. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
47. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.
48. If you don't ask, you don't get.
49. Yield.
50. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift.

I love this list. I think it's right. I just need to try to live by it. Easier said than done.

It's me, Crazy D. Back to blogland. I don't feel like I have a lot of time lately to write in this thing. I love to talk about nothing and put it into cyberland.

I was working 2 jobs. So that did take up a lot of my time. Quit the part time job. I figured if I stay 2 extra hours at my day job it's the same as working a full evening at job #2. My day job offers A LOT of over time so it only made sense to get rid of job #2.

In between all that I have been hanging out with the BF. Nobody new. He's a blast from the past. We have a rocky past. We're both willing to look past it and try again. I care about him a lot and I don't want to walk away. My BFF, as well as many others think I'm crazy. It seems I put up with more than sh*t than I say I will. Talking is easier than doing sometimes. We'll see how round 2 pans out. So far it's WAY better.

So on Thursday I got to see my secret boyfriend in concert. Up close and personal. He even touched my hand...*blush*

Yes. Dierks Bentley was in town. Great concert. The man has an amazing voice, beautiful bod and dreamy eyes! He's an awesome performer. Loves his crowd. My BFF got to meet him...(damn her!) Just kidding. She deserved it. After all, he refers to her in one of his songs.

My favorite band of all time "The Tragically Hip" were in town last night. One of the best shows that I have ever seen them put on. I think that Gord Downie is freakin amazing!!! Love that man. Our seats were kind of high, but that never stops me from attending a Hip concert.

Gord Downie

I have certainly had my fill of concerts for the next few months. Until Dierks or The Hip are in town again.

Until next time...

Happy New Year!! 2007 has approached us. Came pretty damn quickly if you ask me.

I don't normally make New Year's resolutions, but maybe this year I should. I do need to stop smoking because it's unhealthy and gross. I should get my ass back to the gym. That's just good for you, period! There is so many things I should or shouldn't do that I can't list them here because it would get mighty boring.

So for the first time in years I managed to stay away from the "Home town" for New's Years Eve. Every year it's my goal but never managed to stick. I mean, I love my friends that live there and I always have a great time. It's just nice to get away from the drama that manages to unfold every time I'm there. The drama isn't me. It's just classic small town drama that is irritating yet amusing to watch. Part of me was missing it early in the evening but I'm happy that I didn't go.

Ok, so I must tell you about a little piece of heaven. It's called "Teany Pickles". Everyone knocks it as first. It does sound kind of gross. Bacon wraped around pickles and baked until the bacon is cooked. It's FAN-FRIKKIN-TASTIC!! Little piece of heaven in your mouth. I guarantee you. My Gramma used to make them at big dinners and they were loved by all. We just came up with name for them today. My Gramma's name was Teany (Yes, I do know how to spell).

Best wishes to all in 2007!!!

So it's over...

I don't really feel like I had Christmas. I mean yes I did receive some gifts and had dinner. It just didn't feel like Christmas at all. We actually had snow this year so it looked like Christmas. I suppose because I have been working my a$$ off, I didn't have the chance to get into the festive spirit. Maybe next year.

I got some pretty great gifts. Pretty excited about it! I love it when they come in the form of money or gift certificates. Some think it's not thoughtful, but I LOVES it!!

So I came across some interesting information while I was surfing the net. I found out a couple months ago that I have a condition. Not life threatening at all, which is good. When I was told about it, I didn't ask any questions. I was in the hospital and kind of out of it. If I remember correctly the doc made it seem like it wasn't a big deal. I couldn't remember what it was called. So I did some research today and found what it was called and what it can prevent.

It can prevent me from carrying a baby to term. I am at a pretty high risk for miscarriages. That really sucks. I want my own baby some day. I guess we'll have to see.

I wish someone would have told me that leaving my lips alone would help. I decided to leave them bare at night time and they have healed A LOT!! Damn blistex, I thought it was supposed to heal chapped lips.

Do you ever do something and realize that you are slowly turning into your parents? For me I notice that I am turning into my mother. It's a gradual thing but it's happening.

You see, I always told myself that it would never happen but it happens whether you like it or not. It sneaks up slowly with age. When I was younger I always had my purse organized perfectly. I used to get so annoyed and embarassed when I would watch my mother digging thru her purse looking for money or a credit card holding up the line. I swore I would never do that. Well now it's me holding up the line digging thru my purse to find my card to pay for my goods.

So here in Alberta it's cold and we need to wear a scarf. I love my scarf. It's colorful, soft and long. I was at work a few days ago and decided to drape my scarf over my shoulders and it was hanging in the front. I looked down and..... The dreaded scarf. The scarf my mom wears all the time. I mean not the same one scarf but the same way that it was worn. I hated it when I was young and now I'm the one styling the damn scarf.

Last but not least I see her in the mirror every morning (or when I've had a few drinks). My BFF has this pic of me on her phone after I've had a few beverages and it looks EXACTLY like my mother. Last December when I was in Vegas, I got a lil bit sick and afterwards I looked in the mirror and there she was looking back at me.

See I don't mind these little things happening to me. As long as I don't pick up everything. I love me mom but not everything. I think we all can agree on that.

I'm not real sure if we have enough snow yet. I know it's always nice to have a white Christmas but come on. Enough is ENOUGH!!

I am actually getting into the Christmas spirit. I only have a couple more gifts to purchase and I'm set. Tomorrow I am putting up the decorations. My "I don't know what to call him" is coming over for dinner and then we will trim the tree and sing carols. LMAO!! I can really see that happening. That's one thing about Christmas I cannot and will not do, is listen/sing to carols. They make me crazy!! I have this feeling that when my BFF come over for dinner I'm not going to have a choice. She loves them. So I'll be rockin' around the Christmas tree to Lee Greenwood. How lucky am I?

Along with the fantastic Alberta weather I am fortunate enough to have insanely chapped lips. I have been packing on the petroleum jelly, the Kiehl's lip balm, Lysine, Lipactin and avoiding lip gloss so it will heal. I have been eating flax seeds because I hear they keep the skin soft. I have been drinking lots of water so I'm not dehydrated. I keep the humidifier on so my place isn't dry. There is no winning, just whining by me.

I want my luscious lips back.

I have a bit of a complex about it so I lick em and rub em. I'm sure that isn't helping either. I am trying to make an effort not to touch or lick them. What else can I do??

Well apparently I'm so damn likable that the "Ex" wants to stay friends. In his words " Best breakup ever". Kinda weird but I'm not surprised. I am pretty freakin charming and fun to be around. My good looks, pretty smile and great sense of humor make everyone wanna have me in their life. LOL!!! Yeah right!! We were just made to be friends, no more. It's good that we realized it now instead of waiting and making it so we hate each other.

I was so nervous to break the news. I haven't had to break up with someone since high school. My last releationship was a mutual break up. The one before, he left me. Prior to that my bf died. So this was intense for me. That's 10 years with out being the one to break it off. My tummy hurt, my mouth was dry and I had clammy hands. All of that, FOR NOTHING. He took it great. He pretty much agreed with me.

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So 13 years ago today, my sister Debbie passed away. This candle is for her and all other woman lost to breast cancer. We miss you Debbie!