So it's over...

I don't really feel like I had Christmas. I mean yes I did receive some gifts and had dinner. It just didn't feel like Christmas at all. We actually had snow this year so it looked like Christmas. I suppose because I have been working my a$$ off, I didn't have the chance to get into the festive spirit. Maybe next year.

I got some pretty great gifts. Pretty excited about it! I love it when they come in the form of money or gift certificates. Some think it's not thoughtful, but I LOVES it!!

So I came across some interesting information while I was surfing the net. I found out a couple months ago that I have a condition. Not life threatening at all, which is good. When I was told about it, I didn't ask any questions. I was in the hospital and kind of out of it. If I remember correctly the doc made it seem like it wasn't a big deal. I couldn't remember what it was called. So I did some research today and found what it was called and what it can prevent.

It can prevent me from carrying a baby to term. I am at a pretty high risk for miscarriages. That really sucks. I want my own baby some day. I guess we'll have to see.

I wish someone would have told me that leaving my lips alone would help. I decided to leave them bare at night time and they have healed A LOT!! Damn blistex, I thought it was supposed to heal chapped lips.

Do you ever do something and realize that you are slowly turning into your parents? For me I notice that I am turning into my mother. It's a gradual thing but it's happening.

You see, I always told myself that it would never happen but it happens whether you like it or not. It sneaks up slowly with age. When I was younger I always had my purse organized perfectly. I used to get so annoyed and embarassed when I would watch my mother digging thru her purse looking for money or a credit card holding up the line. I swore I would never do that. Well now it's me holding up the line digging thru my purse to find my card to pay for my goods.

So here in Alberta it's cold and we need to wear a scarf. I love my scarf. It's colorful, soft and long. I was at work a few days ago and decided to drape my scarf over my shoulders and it was hanging in the front. I looked down and..... The dreaded scarf. The scarf my mom wears all the time. I mean not the same one scarf but the same way that it was worn. I hated it when I was young and now I'm the one styling the damn scarf.

Last but not least I see her in the mirror every morning (or when I've had a few drinks). My BFF has this pic of me on her phone after I've had a few beverages and it looks EXACTLY like my mother. Last December when I was in Vegas, I got a lil bit sick and afterwards I looked in the mirror and there she was looking back at me.

See I don't mind these little things happening to me. As long as I don't pick up everything. I love me mom but not everything. I think we all can agree on that.

I'm not real sure if we have enough snow yet. I know it's always nice to have a white Christmas but come on. Enough is ENOUGH!!

I am actually getting into the Christmas spirit. I only have a couple more gifts to purchase and I'm set. Tomorrow I am putting up the decorations. My "I don't know what to call him" is coming over for dinner and then we will trim the tree and sing carols. LMAO!! I can really see that happening. That's one thing about Christmas I cannot and will not do, is listen/sing to carols. They make me crazy!! I have this feeling that when my BFF come over for dinner I'm not going to have a choice. She loves them. So I'll be rockin' around the Christmas tree to Lee Greenwood. How lucky am I?

Along with the fantastic Alberta weather I am fortunate enough to have insanely chapped lips. I have been packing on the petroleum jelly, the Kiehl's lip balm, Lysine, Lipactin and avoiding lip gloss so it will heal. I have been eating flax seeds because I hear they keep the skin soft. I have been drinking lots of water so I'm not dehydrated. I keep the humidifier on so my place isn't dry. There is no winning, just whining by me.

I want my luscious lips back.

I have a bit of a complex about it so I lick em and rub em. I'm sure that isn't helping either. I am trying to make an effort not to touch or lick them. What else can I do??

Well apparently I'm so damn likable that the "Ex" wants to stay friends. In his words " Best breakup ever". Kinda weird but I'm not surprised. I am pretty freakin charming and fun to be around. My good looks, pretty smile and great sense of humor make everyone wanna have me in their life. LOL!!! Yeah right!! We were just made to be friends, no more. It's good that we realized it now instead of waiting and making it so we hate each other.

I was so nervous to break the news. I haven't had to break up with someone since high school. My last releationship was a mutual break up. The one before, he left me. Prior to that my bf died. So this was intense for me. That's 10 years with out being the one to break it off. My tummy hurt, my mouth was dry and I had clammy hands. All of that, FOR NOTHING. He took it great. He pretty much agreed with me.

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So 13 years ago today, my sister Debbie passed away. This candle is for her and all other woman lost to breast cancer. We miss you Debbie!